maybe when i go out with my friends you people may see im happy but im not,
im really trying to be strong, not like last time,
because of guy i can cry till siao, almost everyday crying,
but now de me is strong, i need to no matter how im sad, i will not cry!
guys are really not important, cause sisters, bestfriends&friends are more important,
when i need them they was the first one to be there. iloveyou all.

i need to accept the truth that you dont like me anymore , i need to.
i never regret for loving you, cause i really love you,
no matter how you hurt me , i wont hate you,
maybe when i saw you i dont feel like looking at you, cause im afraid i will love you more,
maybe i shall be understanding , cause you're still young,
& when you told me you have no feeling for me anymore ,
it like so blank, it like life is so meaningless for me,
&i nvr felt like this for so long, hais.
&always morning till night i will have msges coming in,
but now not at all , ): im really so sad))))))))))))))):
but michelle you have to be strong((((((((((:

&still i cant get over it

this post was for ytd, cause dont have the time to post.
ytd went have morning breakfast with ong, kuku&manyu,
cause we have alr late for class so we decided not to go.
&on the way to kovan saw someone's msg.
so after breakfast went play bowling.
then wait for qi to came to pass me thing,
after that called bbmei alr bused home &went bathe&everything,
then went meet bbmei at her hus first , wait for her to prepare,
&went down plaza to wait for py.
after that, cabbed to orchard & wait for ong &kuku to came.
went shop here& there, then sheri& marilyn came.
so shop awhile more we went mos burger for dinner&i ate fries only.
after that, shop &shop then went ciged & went starbuck for drink,
after that chatted there for awhile& cabbed to my hus downstair,
only bbmei,ong&sheri slacking , cause they three have to go home,
after tht, slakc tll 12 ? bbmei go off le,
so we went off too, &went home change agn & went play majiong,
till 3plus morning& homed.

thank bbmei, ong, kuku, sheri &sister,
thank for those cheer up, i hope i will get over it.
thankyouuuuuuuuuuu all.

why i fell in love with you?
why love is so selffish?
why?

i wont neglect you anymore,
i promise, i will change
now i know how you feel le.
i dont wish to lose a close friend like you,
you are my bestest friend& the most importance one.
(:


to him-
you have alr hurt me & there no point saying so much,
guy word really cant be trusted.
say feeling wont fade away all this, BULL SHIT!
but still i try to control my tear.
no matter how you hurt me , my feeling will still be the same.
you takecare.

Sorry my dearest friends.
bbmei, ong, kuku.

sorry to make you all worry,
i will change, &i will.
i , Michelle promise that this thing wont happen again.
Bestfriends iloveyou all.

Maybe when im gone, then everyone can be happy.
maybe maybe.
i prefer to be a baby, to have no trouble at all.
to have no worries at all.
if maybe im gone i can be a baby again? haha
grow up liao , then not baby anymore jiu die,
die le, born to be baby agn , then agn &agn.
hahahahahhaa
how i wish to....
but still some other people make me live in this world.
my bestfriends & You.

12 more day to my birthday,
&im not happy at all.

idontknow why everything like that):
i did something wrong or what, i willing to apologize.
sorry.
i dont wish us to drift.
):
sorry.