No want is one is going to side each one of us.
you dont even understand me at all):
maybe you have your partner alr , you think im not so important anymore.
maybe i should think what you are thinking about.
i really dont wish thing to be like this.
i contact you, i try talk more to you, i treat you fair and nice.
but nothing  else seem to change. maybe i have to change for the better.
i have my own attidue my ge xing(in chinese) but i choose not to show it out,
all because i want this friendship to last. not to quarrel and live happily.
i just want peace.
not going to say much, so so sad.
cause you donteven wish to care anymore
maybe you are tired of all this thing, or im not importtant anymore.
but still you are so important to me.
when thing become like this, i felt so moodless.
if you are not very very important to me, i will just never even care and even write.
but i just care so much for this friendship.
....