MICHELLE's

Monday, June 18, 2018

15 June

Happy advance birthday GRANDMA!


Had thienkee steamboat at goldenmile complex. Not a lot of people turn up. Only 5th aunt , 8th aunt and 9th aunt fams plus my fams. I love the steamboat there cause it is traditional and nice.
After our lunch, we took train and head to Tampines hub for K session at Teo Heng, it is $35 for 19 pax per room. Cake cutting session and phototaking during k session. Sing till 7pm and head off for dinner. We ate dinner at tampines food centre. That's all. TATA!

14 JUNE

Took leave on this day. Went out at around 10am to fetch hubs from work. Had lunch at far east plaza before tattoo touch up. Felt a lil disappointed cause my tattoo artist didn't turn up (he texted me in the middle of the night and told me that he met with an accident), therefore I had to go off cause his other colleague do not know how to do tattoo. Aftermath, hub and I went to National dental centre for my cracked too. Sucha coincidental we saw nat. She was there for her toothache as well.
After tooth checking, we went back kovan for dinner. Had Thai kway chap for dinner, its not bad but a lil salty, portion was not big. After our dinner, we head back to my home. That's the end of my Thursday with my beloved hubs. 

FORCE

I just don't like the feeling of being force.
Why can't I just do the thing that I like? I don't expect you to accept me for who I am, but please don't force me.
I know you cant accept that I am a lesbian, I am fine. Please don't ever make me choose.
I am an adult, I know what I want.
I am happy with what I want.
How can it be possible to find a guy during this 2 years? I want shane but no one else.
I love you, daddy. I love Shane too.
I don't want any other people. Why do you have to force me to do what I don't want.
If you really want to force me, all I have to do is die, or die.
I just feel like dying. I cant stay positive.
I think I am having some kind of depression. I hate being force. I just want freedom.
You know that the more you force me, the more I will rebel.
Remember last time you force me to go back home early , I got no choice but to rebel.
I really will do that. I really want to die. If I die and you both will feel happy , why not.
I really don't expect you to accept me for who I am, but I just want my freedom. Please don't force me. Do you want to lose a daughter? Or do you want your daughter to be happy?